For the past decade, I’ve been on a path of consciously bettering myself and I’ve found and used a lot of different processes from a variety of teachers to help me quit smoking, transition into a new career, lose weight and even find lasting love.
If I were to describe to you the woman I use to be, you’d swear I was lying when I told you that she was 80lbs heavier, smoked two packs of cigarettes a day, drank like a fish and would rather bitch about her life than do something about it. It’s all true, but I’ve dramatically changed my life. I no longer drink or smoke, I’ve lost the weight and I love what I do. I’m a cheerleader for love.
When they say hindsight is 20/20, man does that ring true for me. None of that work was easy, but I never quit. Even after the 20th failed attempt of sticking to a diet I still tried again, because it was important to me to not only like my body, but love it. I’ve worked very hard, pushed through some excruciating pain to get where I am now and if I could tell my younger self anything it would be “you’re doing great, things may feel as though they’re falling apart at times, but they’re actually falling into place. So relax, you’ll get there”.
It’s taken me a long time to see how blessed my life is. I use to get hung up on things that ultimately in the end didn’t matter and when things didn’t go the way I expected them to I got increasingly upset with myself. Then, like a lightbulb going off, it hit me: what if I wasn’t doing anything wrong? What if the process of life was just that, a process and feeling good about myself was the only thing that truly mattered– or better yet (and here’s the thought that blew my mind): what if I was doing everything right? Just because I can’t predict how every detail of my life will unfold doesn’t mean I’m a failure, it means I’m a person doing my best just like everyone else.
If you’re a person who sounds a lot like my former self, then my message for you is this: don’t assume you’re doing something wrong because the results of your efforts don’t look like what you thought they would. Don’t give up. Not now, not ever. Even if the journey seems impossible know that it’s not and keep going.
Thank you so much for reading. Lots of love.